I miss Jon a whole lot tonight. Ugh.
What the everloving fuck?!
xotarynnosaurus: kylelengling: Glee is covering Gotye’s “Somebody That I Used To Know”. If you need me, I’ll be in the corner crying. vomiting. everywhere. jesus christ they’re going to fucking ruin it and i can’t even handle all the awful emotions i have right now
It’s the oldest story in the world. one day you’re seventeen and planning for...– (via nothing-hurt-like-you)
A Terrible Feeling.
I had this overwhelming feeling today that basically told me that everthing that I’ve believed in, everything I’ve done in my life is a joke. I’m such a risk taker and an impulse doer. I have been for as long as I could remember, but before tonight I never once had a single regret in my life. I’ve always believed that in order to gain true happiness in life, you had to...
Saturday night I talked to Jon on the phone and told him I was coming to see him Monday since it’s my only day off. I couldn’t leave Stillwater until two, got lost in Dallas and it threw me another hour behind. I finally got to Plano at seven and he made plans with his friends already so he’s not even home. He thought I wasn’t coming anymore since I didn’t call him,...
I believe in love and lust and sex and romance. I don’t want everything to add...– The Mirror has Two faces (via mariammiracle)
Today was a horrible day.
I’ve been doing so good lately. I’ve been feeling somewhat normal overall. But today was by far one of the worst. I realized that Jon is my feeling of normality. He is what balances me through all of this and when he’s gone, I’m a fucking mess. I’m completely unable to function and just numb my way through everything. I realized today that I need to figure out a way...
Got my own apartment today,
YAY! So ready to move out of this place and be roommate-less. So. Ready. I hate the associations and reminders of this house.
They would play the saddest episode of Criminal...
on my lunch break. Right before I go to the doctor to be put on anxiety/anti-depressants for the situation that happened last month. What a sad day.
I am fighting for a reason EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
to keep on going. I was once so happy and hopeful about everything. I can’t find true happiness in a single thing anymore.
I need to get my text book out of my car because I have so much to do. But it’s dark and I am such a pansy. I need Jon to be back from vacation already so he can go out to my car. I’m about to have a fucking panic attack.
xotarynnosaurus: I feel the need to say this - The iPod has been the one, true constant in my life other than family. When no one else has been there for me, been available to talk or offer opinions; with the click of a button I’m able to escape, calm down, and think. It’s also what lifts my spirits in those times as well. It is what keeps me sane. You will be missed, Steve Jobs. Rest in...
Finally got my award letter for financial aid, but it’s ridiculous. 2,500 a semester. That is all. I have no idea how i’m going to pay for the rest of the nearly 13,000. Ugggh.
I do believe I aced my geology exam..
I closed tonight at work. So it is 3:16am, I’m just getting settled into bed. I need to be awake by 8am. In less than 5 hours: -Geology exam. -Political Science exam. -Work at 5. Sat: -AM:Get caught up on homework due for Monday since I will have zero time to do it over the rest of the weekend. -6pm:Close at work (off at 3am). Sun: -Work at 11am-4pm. -Alcohol class for work at...
YOU GUYS I FIGURED IT OUT
xotarynnosaurus: Augustana broke up because they’re going to Boston.
A bit of my paper. So much to add.
The debate against whether or not abortions are constitutional is a constant and very emotional issue. Abortion is an issue that rises emotions in nearly everyone, particularly women. Whether abortion violates a woman’s privacy rights is commonly asked and debated. In the case of Roe v. Wade, the United States Supreme Court concluded that Roe’s rights were violated. In result, the...
Debating whether I should minor in criminal...
I feel like a major in psychology and a minor in criminal justice would be a great combination. Hmmmmm.
I can't even walk to my own car to go to Jon's.
I came home from class and decided to stay here until jon was done at his jiu jitsu class. I tried going to get food after dark and nearly had a panic attack.. Now i’m stuck in my room feeling sick to my stomach and waiting for him to get here..
I feel like I’m becoming annoying with all this talk about how scared I am since my attack, but I can’t help it. I just want this feeling to go away. I want to be able to sleep. :(